So ive been sitting here staring at a blank screen now for about 15 minutes trying to figure out what I want to write. I dont really have anything. And this is weird because I have always loved to talk. Dont get to do it that much anymore tho for the fact that all my frineds are now married and have children so conversations with them seem to have shifted from normal things to problems with the daycare service or child disipline or and this is my favorite " I swear to God if my ole lady dont quit bitchin ima divorce her ass". To which I always have the responce of "I told you it was a fuck up to get married". See my deal with it is all my biddues seem to have settled and got married because it was the next step your supposed to do in life. You know graduate ,get a job, get married, have kids, grow old and then death. On a side note most of the ones I know reversed the order between marriage and kids which could play a part in the reason they got married. Im 23 and I have no desire to have kids or get married of course I can truly say that even if I did have that dredful wish there is not much of a selection here. They either already have kids and expect you to walk right on in to a ready made family or else they have been married and divorced and are so bitter that it would make a green persimmon seem sweet. So honestly why not enjoy life. I am certian of very little but of the few things I do know I can tell you this. I have no clue what I want to be when I grow up. I am freakishly scared of commitment. And I will not start a family until I am sure that I can provide for them and have a place for them to live and a very comfortable means of support. But yet again I have run out of things to say so ill sign off. And if any of you out there can obilge...I need a cold beer. More to follow